Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Does Love Really Mean Having To Say You're Sorry?

"2 these walls I talk
Tellin' 'em what I wasn't strong enough 2 say
2 these walls I talk
Tellin' 'em how I cried the day U went away

How did we ever lose communication?
How did we ever lose each other's sound?
Baby, if U wanna, we can fix the situation
Maybe we can stop the rain from coming down"

In This Bed I Scream - Prince - Emancipation - 1996


Often times, I've wondered why, if situations arise where a friend of yours feels wronged by you, they feel you need to apologize to them even if you've done nothing wrong. There may be a miscommunication or even an expectation that isn't communicated at all. God forbid you miss their expected cue and all of a sudden you are the very worst person in the world. I've had two situations happen to me over the course of this weekend that I simply refuse to apologize for. The second was just stupid and I won't even get into it here. The first situation occured Friday. For the record, I went above and beyond anything I was really supposed to do for this person when everything went down on Friday morning(the situation is rather personal to them and I'd rather not discuss it here). Now, during the course of the day, I have a million things to do ALWAYS. I don't always get the chance to get on the phone like I'd want to. Hell, I don't call my Mother everyday. But this friend expected a phone call, because of the seriousness of this situation. I never really even thought of calling this person because the impression I was given was that they were surrounded by family and at a time like this a call from me may not have been well received just due to the confusion occuring. Little did I know..
I guess I know better now. BUT I'm not angry. Just don't understand it all..
R.

1 comment:

보보 said...

hi, just randomly stopping by and i felt i should comment on this entry instead of the more recent ones because i underwent the same thing: i missed my "cue" and became the worst person....don't understand it at all.